Saturday, January 27, 2007

LIFE OF A SINGLE MOTHER.

Now that I have two small children, one 14 months old and one 1 month old, it is really getting hard for me to maintain my job and school, both fulltime. My day consist of working eight long hours in a psych ward, then comin home to two kids crying at the top of their lungs, for attention. I play with both of them for a while, then I shower. My son, the one month old, has to eat evrything three hours and my daughter, fourteen months old requires constant
attention. I then feed my daughter, then let her watch tv before bedtime. After tv time she then gets a bath. It is now nine in the evening. I then lay her down in bed. I then bathe my son, feed him one last time and play with him until he falls asleep. Then, it is time for me to study. I am taking 16 credit hours and it is hard to keep my courses straight, one of them being Anatomy and Pysiology. I study for about three hours, then I hear my son crying because it is time to eat again. After feeding, i try studying a little bit more,but I realize I have to be up in three and half hours. I finally lay down for bed, wake up and do it all over again.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Life Always Throws You for a Spin

Life is funny, isn't it. Somehow when it seems that you are doing good,BAM, it hits you with a life changing event. In my case it hit me with two life changing events, one after another. November28, 2005 I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl, although it wasn't planned. So i sucked it up and said this is one of life's BAM's. So me and the father of my child tried to be together like a family, me vowing to not have another child by him. So we tried the family thing for about 4 months. Me and him had I disagreements due to him not contributing to the household. He moved out in April 2006. I then began working full-time, and i enrolled in school last semester full-time. People often told me that I shouldn't be working like that, but I had to in order to provide for my child and pay the bills. I did this for about two to three months I went to the doctor to find out why I was so fatigued all the time, me thinking that i was always tired because of work, school, and raising a child. Then the day of my doctor's appointment, he came in the room, and hit me with another BAM, I was pregnant with my second child by the same deadbeat father of my first born. I thought my life was over, but I thought and thought about it. I then decided that I was going to still finish what I started with school and work. It is hard but I get a lot of support and help from my mother and sister. See have life always throws you for a spin