I BELIEVE

When, I was twenty years old, I went through a state of depression. This depression was, of course, caused
by a man. It wasn't always bad, but nothing good lasts forever.
Our relationship started when I was twenty years old. We were child hood friends. Alfter five years of not
seeing each other, we reunited at a friends party. We spent that whole night talking. After that, we were insepearable.
So five months into our relationship, I learned that I was pregnant. That same night I found out, I told the news to my
boyfriend. I was scared of the reaction because I felt we were not ready for a baby. However, he took the news
well. he was so excited. We then made plans to move in together and get prepared for the birth of our child.

As I said, nothing good lasts forever. After living together for a couple months, our relationship began to
crumble. We were always arguing, and he stopped working, so it was all upt o me to get a job in order to pay the
bills. he didn't want ot do anything to help, but I stayed so my child would be born with a family. Needless to say, he
picked up and left two months before my due date. After he left me, I couldn't eat or sleep. I no longer socialized
with me famil and friends. I basically locked myself in the house, crying for hours. I kept wondering, "What did I do
wrong?" I was very depressed.

On November 28, 2006, I went to the hospital to have my labor induced. At 3:03 p.m. , my daughter,
Jasmine, was born. When I held her in my arms, all my worries, fears, and concerns seemed to disappear. I didn't
care about anything except the health of my baby. At that moment, I vowed to never fell like I did before. I vowed to
not let my ex-boyfriend, Jasmine's father, bring me down any longer. My daughter is now fourteen months old and her
father still refuses to be in her life. It is because of her that I am happy with my life. She is the reason I decided to go
back to school to get my nursing degree. She makes me feel like I have a reason to be alive. That is why I believe
children are a blessing.

LIFE OF A SINGLE MOTHER.

Now that I have two small children, one 14 months old and one 1 month old, it is really getting hard for me to maintain my job and school, both fulltime. My day consist of working eight long hours in a psych ward, then comin home to two kids crying at the top of their lungs, for attention. I play with both of them for a while, then I shower. My son, the one month old, has to eat evrything three hours and my daughter, fourteen months old requires constant
attention. I then feed my daughter, then let her watch tv before bedtime. After tv time she then gets a bath. It is now nine in the evening. I then lay her down in bed. I then bathe my son, feed him one last time and play with him until he falls asleep. Then, it is time for me to study. I am taking 16 credit hours and it is hard to keep my courses straight, one of them being Anatomy and Pysiology. I study for about three hours, then I hear my son crying because it is time to eat again. After feeding, i try studying a little bit more,but I realize I have to be up in three and half hours. I finally lay down for bed, wake up and do it all over again.

Life Always Throws You for a Spin

Life is funny, isn't it. Somehow when it seems that you are doing good,BAM, it hits you with a life changing event. In my case it hit me with two life changing events, one after another. November28, 2005 I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl, although it wasn't planned. So i sucked it up and said this is one of life's BAM's. So me and the father of my child tried to be together like a family, me vowing to not have another child by him. So we tried the family thing for about 4 months. Me and him had I disagreements due to him not contributing to the household. He moved out in April 2006. I then began working full-time, and i enrolled in school last semester full-time. People often told me that I shouldn't be working like that, but I had to in order to provide for my child and pay the bills. I did this for about two to three months I went to the doctor to find out why I was so fatigued all the time, me thinking that i was always tired because of work, school, and raising a child. Then the day of my doctor's appointment, he came in the room, and hit me with another BAM, I was pregnant with my second child by the same deadbeat father of my first born. I thought my life was over, but I thought and thought about it. I then decided that I was going to still finish what I started with school and work. It is hard but I get a lot of support and help from my mother and sister. See have life always throws you for a spin